beautiful disaster

change can happen so fast, so soon.
people change and feelings change.

by the time you know it, you’ve changed.

things that you use to like are now things you can’t stand.
old habits that you thought you killed, are new habits that continue to live.
people who you thought were going to always be there, turns out to be missing in action.
people who you thought were never going to be there, turns out to be the ones that lends you a helping hand and a shoulder to cry on.

changes are bound to always happen,
you can’t blame yourself or anyone… but accept that it happens everyday.  We are all changing, every second in our lives we are changing, never the same as the minute that just passed. 

so the decision is to try to stay the same, and force yourself to do the same things because its too hard to accept changes in life and feelings, or accept and face the reality of change and open your eyes and see the horizon, and reach out further into the depths.

I choose to face changes and accept the reality of change, rather than live in an utter darkness of truths that no longer exists.

sometimes I wonder if you realize that when I say no, I mean yes. 

if you even realize that with the little time I have free, I use it to spend time with you

sometimes you make me feel so distant

It’s tough and it hurts, but I’m putting on a bold face and going through the days focusing on other things… If I could I would say all these things to you, but I’m a foolish coward, and so I’m doing what I do best, biting on my tongue, letting the tears silently run… I made a decision that I can’t take back

spring 2013

that’s my graduation date!
i will be all set to graduate from college with a degree in Political Science and minor in Health Science!

Officially done with Poli-Sci in Winter of 2013 :)